I need to say some things...

[Laharls_Wrath]

First and foremost I would like to apologize to Wave yet again
I cannot be forgiven for such an act, and I cannot forgive myself if I am not forgiven
Since I never plan to be forgiven I must never forgive myself

To avoid forgetting the crime I commited I plan to add a reminder to my signature, a "scarlet letter" of sorts...
This way it will never be forgotten and through it I will always show repentance

I cannot believe myself for trying to harm a friend like Wave. I do not what came over me and using Espeon, after being trusted with knowledge of her, is unforgivable. I have broken our trust.

This disturbed me so much that I actually considered leaving. I am always at the center of these troubles and fear I am the one to blame. But alas I could never leave this place, for I am too strongly attached to it.

This leads me to my thoughts on people. Perhaps at the core of all social awkwardness is the fact that humans are not predictable. There is no set way to go about things. No way to undo what has been done. No way to restore things to the way they were. This deeply saddens and worries me. It is a fact of life that I hate to accept.

I also have a few things I wish to say to Wave, not in any way trying to make an excuse for myself, but just to hope to help him in the future. He should learn to forgive minor insults to espeon (I am not talking about what I have done) simply for his own sake. The rage he experiences is not something I am unfamiliar with and learning to forgive. Learn from me, rage is destructive and brings nothing but harm. Again please dont think of this in the paranoid way I would, it is merely advice. I only wish for your happiness.

and again, I wish to apologize once more
I will not let myself get angry like this with one of you ever again
this event has shocked me to my core, I have not experienced an ounce of joy all day.
They say time heals all wounds, I hope they are right

and lastly I would like to make a statement on hope
while the odds against something may be infinitely small, they still exist
we have no way of knowing the future therefore we must hope
hope is a necessity and is not just blind foolishness
hope makes us human and hope we must all have

again, I am deeply sorry

[Laharls_Wrath]

Now I have said what I needed to say, I hope you all have listened and will read the words I wrote

[Tails82]

Nov 9, 2009 15:33:34 GMT -5 Laharls_Wrath said:

I will not let myself get angry like this with one of you ever again

I will add this to my sig

[Mastery]

You insulted Espeon? That's bad. I sympathize with Wave, I too, have an animal running around my head. Bt I agree with your advice. Minor insults, and jokes shouldn't be taken seriously, even to that one asset of your mind. Although, I don't know how I'd react if my friend was insulted.

[Laharls_Wrath]

Normally, in person, I dont have such an explosive rage
More of a seething anger that, at its worst, results in me rapidly muttering curses under my breath as I walk through the halls at school.

and I should never be angry like this with a friend or a pal

[Mastery]

Such is the nature of the inernet. The guise of internet personas and the ability to type away your anger at your keyboard has the same effect of hiding anger the way you do, but not the same end result.

[Chromeo]

"I too, have an animal running around my head."

...Orly?

[Umbreon]

I have one in my head too...it's me.
Gotta look after #1, right?

[Mastery]

Yup yup.

[Umbreon]

Humans are animals too. Inferior ones.

[Mastery]

Shut up Umbreon.

[Chromeo]

Nov 9, 2009 16:36:03 GMT -5 Mastery said:

Shut up Umbreon.

[Tails82]

Shut up Umbreon.

[Mastery]

Nov 9, 2009 16:38:34 GMT -5 Tails82 said:

Shut up Umbreon.

[little j ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ ✔]

Shut up, umbreon, you think you're a vaporeon.